Where am I going to....

Well.....I visited the ENT today. Our theory made sense. Sounded correct. Mom and I really had high hopes. We really hoped this was where it ended. Well....it IS a cyst. And the cyst is not what's causing the headaches. I'm right back to square one.....to say I'm disappointed is an understatement. I really had hopes. But as the doctor was explaining, I just had to fight back tears. I've never had to do that in a doctor's office. This visit meant a lot to me, cuz I thought the answer would be found.....it's still a mystery....

The doctor wants a sleep test done. I'm almost positive it's not needed. My sleep problems occured 2 months after the headaches started, and the headaches are what's causing my insomnia, not the other way around. He also mentioned that my 12-year-molars growing in could be causing the headaches, because I'm almost 14 and the last molar is just coming in. My dentist said that was perfectly alright and it should not be causing that level of pain.

I've gone down every road, taken every test, gone every way imaginable....and yet, there's nothing.....the only thing we have to fall back on is that this might be from a virus I had in February, where all my symptoms were flu-like (I had a fever of 103.4 for 3 days), but nobody else in my house caught it, which is highly unusual. So....the only way to get rid of a virus is to wait. Time gets rid of it. And reading online, it's sometimes gone in 6 months, but that's not in my case, because it's been 6 months and the headaches are still strong. Mine might be here for a year to 5 years.

I guess we can't really pray for a cause now, cuz we've eliminated everything. It's pretty much a medical mystery right now. There's nothing I can do but wait. All there is to pray for now is a miracle. God is a God of miracles....and hopefully soon He will heal me. But for right now I have to stay strong, keep my chin up, and fight through the worst. Please keep praying....it means more than you know.

6 out of the past 10 songs I've written lately have been about this trial. I wrote another song just today, hope you like it ;)

Bright Side Of Things (One More Day)
Verse 1 - Here I am gain
I'm back to where I started
It seems like I have been here
A million times before
Every path I find
Takes me around in circles
It seems like I'm not getting
Anywhere anymore
Disappointed as I may be
I will choose to see
The bright side of things

Chorus - It's one more day for me to smile
Throughout this everlasting fight
It's one more day for me to shine
God's everlasting light
It's one more day for me to trust
The God who causes me to sing
It's one more day for me to look
And see the bright side of things

Verse 2 - Here I am again
Living through this struggle
Unable to give up
Unable to give in
So many times in my life
He's carried me through trials
I know now as I fall
He'll carry me again
Grieved as I may be
I will choose to see
The bright side of things

(repeat chorus)

Bridge - It's one more day to go through life
Whether I've got strength to live it
Every breath is painful, but a gift from above
So I'm gonna give it all I got
Though I don't have much to give it
It's just one more day to trust the God I love

(repeat chorus)

Thanks you guys, keep it up!

~*~Rach~*~